'Twas the night before Christmas

'Twas the night before Christmas and thoughts fill my heart ,

Of loved ones that support me and the love that they impart. 

The gifts are ready and Santa will stop
Amazon is a blessing so that he can still shop.

The children still anticipate Christmas and feel the magic,  Life moves on and it doesn't matter if your mom is sick.

My head is cold and covered with a fleece hat, Emotions are on a roller coaster and are anything but flat-

I think about life and what really does matter, To when things seemed simple and I was a little fatter!

I try to be more patient and not quite as rash, To think about the true meaning of the holidays and not just the cash.

Cancer gives you insight to life lesson's you might miss, and you think twice before you begrudge and moan and hiss.

What is that lesson that cancer caused to appear? To appreciate each moment and not live with the fear.

To love those around you and not focus on being sick, to take some deep breaths and not to judge too quick. 

It's hard to fight the fight and Cancer is so lame, but sometimes you just need to right words to win the game:

Let's dream, and believe, and hug and care, Keep fighting, dreaming, believing and share;

Cancer will eventually enter our lives one and all, the trick is to figure out how to beat it and not fall.

As we meet this challenge we find wings that help us fly, for some it means a survivor but others a home in the sky;

If I can look back on this time and see how I grew, I would hold each cancer patient and tell them what I knew...

I would share all the answers in hopes to give them hope, to connect our stories and create a survivor's rope. 

And you will hear me exclaim at the end of this night, That I will continue this journey and not give up the fight.

This year I can't help but wonder what if this was my last Christmas? Who have I offended? Were my last words to my loved ones kind? Did I need to get angry at that driver that cut me off? What is important in life?

I am so grateful for the example of the Savior. The silver lining of cancer.... It makes you slow down and perhaps treat other with more love. "Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night."