I think I can

The past few days have felt very long. Thank you Holly for updating the blog. They anticipated a 4 hour surgery and I was more of a 6 hour surgery. They were more aggressive than anticipated. They removed all of my lymph nodes and they are planning to biopsy that along with the breast tissue. My scars are kind of scary and nasty. But most of the cancer is out and the rest will be taken care of with chemo.

I am heading home today.... Wednesday. I have enjoyed to family members who stayed with me. I enjoyed my visitors. I've enjoyed to flowers and gifts. Thank you for keeping visits short. I get so tired. The hardest ting is getting out of bed to go to the bathroom. I get stinging sharp pain in the left side of my chest. It has gotten to the point that I'm afraid to go pee because I am fearful of this pain. 

And then I was reminded of my favorite childhood story. The story is of a little train who had never gone over the hill. It was too hard. It was too steep. And he was just a small train. But the little train had faith and was BRAVE... "I think I can" "I think I can" "I think I can"!

And Joey sent me a picture of this sign above our front door. I need to be the little engine that could. And each time I have gotten up the pain is a little more manageable. I thought I could! I knew I could! I'm not giving up or giving into the pain.